Digital-Papercut

I really wanted to and tried to remain active on this site but after some thinking over the last few months I’ve decided that..... it’s time I move on from here . I have made so many amazing memories and met truly some of the most amazing people in my 9 years of being on this site. However, I’ve started to take my art more seriously and I’m in my 3rd year of colleges working on my degree in hopes of becoming a professional in this industry one day and my life has just taken such a huge turn and I’ve matured and grown up so much these last few years. And with growing up sometimes means leaving things behind you unfortunately. I don’t have many if any friends that still use this site and I personally don’t feel compelled or invested to continue using it. It’s been an amazing ride here but it’s time I start moving on. I’ll still leave this account up as a reminder of what was there but I won’t be active on here anymore outside of maybe changing my tagline if my username on other sites changes. 

Hope you all have a great holiday today. If you don’t celebrate it then still have a safe holiday c:

Thought it would be a good time to give an update on where I've been these last few decades. 

      Well, lets just say 2017 so far hasn't been good to me so far. For one my mother back in January told the family she has beast cancer, which prompted me to lose my shit. Good news is that she managed to catch it earlier so it is curable, but it's still cancer and it's not something to take lightly. Thankfully her treatment has been going smoothly and she's making a recovery. It hasn't stopped me from staying up late at night with stress but I'm glad it's getting better. I don't know how many of you have known anyone with cancer but it's heartbreaking to see your own mother's hair fall out and seeing her have to cover it up because she doesn't want to you having a breakdown over it. However that hasn't stopped my sisters from using this opportunity to tell me that I'm still too young and stupid ( cause apparently 18 is considered to be too young to understand concepts like dieseses and cancer despite our mother being a nurse so I've heard stuff like this for years.) to understand how serious cancer is. Which reaaally made me lose my shit since they feel it's the right time to tell me that because I'm not reacting how they want/expect me too that I'm oblivious to the obvious. To prevent causing further stress to myself and everyone in the house I've just been either hiding in my room to outside the house with some friends, which have been making me feel better despite my situation and I can't stop being grateful to them for it c: .  

       Next is college, which I'm starting in the fall, I already been accepted into the college I want but I still have some prerequisites to finish like a placement test, room, roommate etc. which isn't as bad as I thought, it's just time consuming . Place that on top of finishing my last year of high school (which I only have 3 weeks left of) and I have a full plate I'm also looking for work due to me only having $5 to my name lol. I actually have an interview with a restaurant Monday so fingers crossed I don't fuck it up. Strangely through all that has been going on in my life I've still had some time to draw, reasons I haven't posted anything is for the above reasons. And I've had zero motivation to finish the stuff I started on or start anything new. 

       Things are getting better for me though and with any luck I'll have things on my page back to normal. Thanks for reading this, those of you that actually read journals xD. Have a good day/afternoon/night

Hope your all having a good one, even if you don't celebrate Christmas and be safe to those of you traveling !!

//checks pulse.... Nope still breathing c:

Before I get into everything, happy first day of fall everyone! c:. Since it's still like 80-90 degrees where I live I can't really say it's fall for me yet lol. 

Sooooo...... if you're reading this 1. Thanks for remembering me c: and 2. You're probably a bit curious as you why it's been a little over 2 months and nothing has come from me since.

       Well, school started up for this the 4th of this month and... it's alright. I like some of my classes but don't like some of my teachers and the new facility is nuts and I'm not talking cashews. I'm still adjusting to the new changes which is one of the reasons why this journal took me a while to put up because despite me now being in my 4th year every year when they change something it throws me off and I feel like it's my first time entering the school. Alongside school, college is creeping up on my very slowly. It's not that I have no idea what I want to do. It's that I don't where to go because my options are limited. I've looked at some really cool ones but the problem is there in another state and it cost more to attend. Plus the fact it's too far from home for my liking. My family my drive me up and down the wall but I don't wanna too far from them. I've narrowed it down to 3 so far but still in the deciding process :I. 

       School aside I've been using next to all my free time either practicing , playing video games, or watching anime. The anime part isn't working out so well because a what I've watched has been pretty mediocre, like Re:Zero. I'm sorry people who like it but that show left me disappointed as fuck. //Clears throat// Back to art. I want to expand and improve on my art so I've been sketching like a mad person. It's starting to pay off since I'm starting to see a noticeable improvement. It still needs work but it's getting there. I'm also changing some things about my characters since I feel like it's that time again. I kinda don't want them to be fan-characters anymore :/ Since I've been working on their personalities and backstories I feel they don't really fit into the Sonic universe anymore (No, I'm not leaving the fandom or am going to stop drawing fan characters or official characters), I just want to make them something different. Now this isn't set in stone by any means, I'm still debating on it. I (hopefully) plan to have something up either sometime next week or the beginning of October. 

       Now putting art aside I'm job hunting because I'm currently broke and money won't grow on a tree for me (believe me I've tried). It's just really difficult finding a place where I live to work because a lot of them require me to be 18 years old (I'm 17 if you guys don't know) which is in about 4 months (January 1st). So that sucks :I. 

That's all I have to say for now. 
 Hope you all are having/enjoying your day/night :smile:




Now let me take my leave because I have an English paper and Math assignment due tomorrow and they won't do themselves (tragically)